Sharon i agree with you on so many levels its quite scary to read some of your posts because its like your writing how i think and feel.I know how it feels to have such high expectations that are always failing to be reached because they are so high and i certainly agree with your statement that its easier to do the jobs myself rather than have someone else do them because then i know they'll be done to my standards.You say your family live in Australia well thats where im from uncanny hey.Well i hope that we can help and support each other in the coming weeks/months to recover from our disorders.I look forward to talking with you.Gabbi.
Today i stood up to my husband i told him if he dosnt stop doing what hes been doing im leaving.And now im petrified he wont stop because im scared to leave i dont know how i would cope with 4 children being a sole parent i have no family around and i cut myself off from all of my friends so im scared but i know i cant keep living like this i feel like im damned if i do and damned if i dont.Ok now for the positives i am a fighter i am strong so if push come to shove i could do it alone!Feels weird typing such positive things about myself because i have told myself for so long how hard it would be but i need to start making ME happy and sorting out what stays and what goes.Thanks for listening or rather reading.Gabbi.
Sharon thankyou for your kind words and faith in me i hope you are feeling a little(or a lot) better now.It is so hard to get back up when your down i know.I am taking my kids down to my parents house which is about 4 hours away for a few days on saturday i think i need a little break things have been so tense around here lately and just want to get away from my husband for a bit to sort out what i need to do hopefully a little break will be all it takes so i will let you know how i go.In the meantime you take care.Gabbi.
Eclaire97 im not sure if you know but in the depression program there is a diary format to keep track of things so if you havnt already you could check it out and see if thats what your looking for.Gabbi.
I know exactly how you feel i must say though i am starting to get a bit better i have been seeing a psychologist for 4 months i am just finding myself being able to get some control over some of my compulsions it is so hard but i wanted you to know there is hope.Have you tried CBT?Gabbi.
Hi Sharon how are you?I hope all is well.I think you need to focus on getting you better before trying to travel as much as im sure you'd love to be able to i think its just adding more pressure on you to get better and i dont think that helps any.Im sure your family will understand you are going through a fair bit at the moment.I came home and my husband has been so good he cant do enough for me trouble is though it never lasts but i have layed down the law i told him if we are going to stay together he has to start pulling his weight or im outa here i proved to him(and myself) that i can do it alone so hopefully he wises up.Talk soon.Gabbi.
I went to my parents house for 4 days without my husband just me and the kids and i survived it i am so proud of myself i have told myself for so long i cant do it alone but i proved to myself and my husband that i can do it!so i gave my husband an ultimatum im not going to be treated like a doormat anymore.Just wanted to share my good experience with you all.Gabbi.
Hey Sharon sorry to read your having a rough time but just remember it will pass eventually i know thats hard to believe right now but you will be ok i have found that the past couple of times i have spiralled down a bit i do some exercise like running or yoga and it takes my mind off the negatives if only for a little while.Go for a walk do something you would normally enjoy the less you do the worse you will feel.Hope that helps some.Please take care.Gabbi.
Kendy i know how you feel i have a hard time keeping friends i think its because i want everyone to like me and i dont like to disagree with anyone so i find myself pulling away instead of just being myself.In your post you said you rarely call your friend and only see her a couple of times a month so your not being a pest but maybe she gets the impression you arnt interested in a friendship because you hardly call i dont kow if thats it but i think you need to ask her tell her how you feel and if she decides to not hang around then she was never really a friend friends are there for each other through anything i have one friend who i would do absolutely anything for and she has stuck by me throughout the past 11 years she is the only person who knows the 'real' me.Even though im through the internet im here for you ok.Gabbi.
