Hi and welcome! It is scary to move out but you should think that is your den. Your place where you can do all you want to do. (For me it is like this). When I go home I put on some music and go for a shower and then try to cook something or just invent the strangest things and combinations. No one can tell me that doesn't like the food or the way I'm dressed etc.
As for the new job it can be interesting and challenging so give it a try. You don't have to be the best but only to feel ok with your progresses.
I'm looking especially in discovering new areas where organic agriculture may be implemented. The system should work on documentation and various textual info and try to find those areas.
Now I should find a little piece of this to write the paper.
The other paper should be on th progress I've made on Sentiment Analysis (no progress till now).
The big problem is that i have to write something in max 10 days. And I have not ideas. And still fighting with my parents in the office and I've lost 5 days doing stupid dvd's and cd's. And my parents also put pressure on me to finish this papers. but in the mean time they wouldn't let me.....
The oproblem is not that i'm unable to write but that i have no ideas. Or at list I have some ideas but I don't have the mood to write the software to begin the tests. It is really a bad sensation. I just have no energy to start working. Especially when I spent all day doing stupid things and fighting with them....
Anyway Ive just told them that I cannot work in these conditions. And that I have the deadlines. I will see if they understood or not. The true is that everything is worsening. They are simply driving me crazy.
My parents lived in rome for many years so they know the city very well. And is less chaotic than Bucharest...
The main problem is my boyfriend especially because him is not a graduate, even if is a splendid person. But for them is not enough. They want for me a men with a great social position etc. Like I was their show dog and need a pedegree companion....
As for innocent ... I started working since 21 with them along with university. and I had a lot of responsabilities. for two years I organized informatics training with doctors. Practically I have to organize events and support the teaching staff all over Romania. So they at least should know that I can manage strange situations and that I'm independent.
But as soon as I was out for nearly 2 years to work on my thesis my mother just gone out. I needed to fight for almost 2 years to go to live in my own home. It is my grandmother apartment.
And every day seems to go even worse. I cannot understand.
When I was in high schiool they didn't care where I spent all day now they pretend to know everything. So... huh?!?!
I have for you some good news. I restarted exercising and felt a little better. Is a good way to release tension. For now I've done only 20 minutes a day. I hope only to keep doing it even if some times I don't feel like exercising.
Yesterday I've managed to get some work done. I preparing most of the test data for one of the papers. For the second I need to solve a software issue but right now I don't know how.... I hate Java. If I solve this one maybe I can have some new results.... Is a stupid thing but stops all my experiments. Is the behaiviour of a library to access a lexical dictionary. Normally if doesn't find a word it should just return a null value instead is stopping all algorithm....
If I solve this maybe I should have something for the paper. If only I'll find the energy to concentrate on this.
Yesterday the accuse that I'm hating them.... Only because I wasn't happy to stay at work till 8 o'clock in the evening and miss an appointment with my bestfriend. We wanted to go skating. I'm going today but anyway..... for all this I couldn't sleep tonight and now I'm a reck.
Yesterday I didn't feel to much to exercise but anyway I've done one good session with my electro muscle stimulator. I have it because of my back problems and there are some exercises that I can't do. At least I've done something for me. And today I'm going roller-skating. So it shoud be fun :)
