I've managed to start thinking at tha papers. I don't know but was something natural after the bad day. Firstly I turned mad and that started to concentrate. Let'd hope that the worst has gone...
Thank you for all your adivices. I'will try to write down and to divide the problems.
Hi all! Just returned from the hills and my mother is out. Again the old story that i don't want to stay with them. And that IU choose to go to live on the other part of the city. and she asked for the phone number of the parents of my boyfriend... no comment.
Why... good question. Mybe because they didn't realize I've became an adult. My mother thinks that is my boyfriend fault that i'm trying to set some boundaries and to have my own life. She thinks event that my best friend tries to meke me independent...
Another thing they didn't knew I was seeing a doc. And then they discovered my meds. Obvously didn't understood a thing. My mother thinks that is my boyfriend fault or anybody else but not hers.
I really don't know how to manage all this.
I love my boyfriend and we are great toghether. Honestly my mother has a lot of prejudices because he doesn't have a degree and he lives in south italy. So is not good.
He is an IT professional and has a really great culture and education. Only no university. And who cares.... I don't.
So i've been away from them for the last year and a half. And no help every time when I came back is worse. I'm doing my PhD in Italy and they are in bucharest. Every time I came bak simply seems that they are out of control.... When they are only accusing me is hard to just talk. It is impossible and I donn't know what to do. When I came back even if I have my own home my mother tries to me me stay with them.... I don't know if I will ever get better with them.
I am working on a system that should recognize witch post in a forum is a flame or not. It uses for now simple statistics on words and now I should try soime othet methods like grammatical annalisys. and for now the results are worse.
Then I should try to came with something for my other prof and this is really blank...
I should try to work on some data on Organic agriculture and try to extract some usefull information from various forums. But blank again....
I'm fighting with both. I have also a story of self-harming. It is obvious that when I get really depressed it is hard to control the other problems. I will eat everything at hand and start craving for physical pain. It is years that I'm not doing it anymore. but I still think of it. It is hard to ignore those feelings.
When I will be back in Rome I plan to start again to take care of me. Here with all the pressure from my parents is impossible. My mother even gets upset with me if I'm getting out with my friends because i don't spent enough time with her....
So this is my situation right now and I would like to get better some day. I hope.
The only thing that is positive is that my boyfriend is very supportive. I'm just waiting to return tu Rome and have a little freedom back again.
I believe not..... She has lost her interest and only concentrate on my father. He had a hart attack 20 years ago and she feels responsable for his health and even sometimes blames me if he doesn't feel very well.... every time I try to get with her anywere she starts talking or about work or about what should I do in my life so my father is not disappointed with me. I think that she needs a psy much more than I do....
But she is scared even of me trying to take care of myself.
Hi! Welcome! You should talk to your doc for any concern about meds. SSRI anyway start working in about 4 weeks from the begining of treatment. During the dose setup is common to feel even worse than without meds. At least for me.
Try to write down how you are feeling and in witch time a day for several days. so your doc can understand if simply you should change meds or adjust dose or simply change the time of the day when you are talking the meds.
