I am new to all of this and have been sitting and reading everyones comments. I am 32 years old and have been divorced and was in a very verbally abusive marriage. I have since practically driven my boyfriend crazy. I have a 10 year old daughter who has to still deal with her nut for a father. Which in turn has thrown me into severe depression. As far as the friend thing, saying all friends turn their back. I dont think it is a matter they turn their back, it is a matter they dont know how to deal with depression. And, if you think about it, us as sufferers dont either. Honestly, how are we suppose to get mad at them, when we want to get away from ourselves, but we cant. I have a wonderful boyfriend and he has stood by me and I think for him it is getting very stressful dealing with this and I dont blame him. It has been about 8 months dealing with major depression and I have been on 6 different pills trying to help me. I think people can be patient for so long with your negative thoughts until finally it does take a toll on them. It isnt that they dont love you, it is the fact it seems like a dead end road for them, as it does for us. The last couple of days, that is why I ran across this website, I have been really trying to find myself help for all of my negative thoughts about myself. We all should have self worth and happiness in our lives. When we have depression, that seems impossible. Twice as bad for me since I was in a relationship where he made me feel I was worth nothing. The great black hole called depression is very hard to get out of. I thought suicide would be my way out. Who am I kidding. I have a 10 year old and a boyfriend who has a 15 year old a 10 year old also.......I have realized the hell I would put them through if I did commit suicide. I just get to the point where I am tired of putting him through this and that is the only way. WRONG!! The only way is to get help and inform your loved one as much as possible about the disease so they hopefully dont turn their back on you. Coming from someone who has hit rock bottom, I hope this helps. :)