Hi Barbara...
I'm here. Inspiration?... Well, I'm trying to find that inspiration through God. I know that people in desparate times latch onto God and just pray that things would get better. I think I've come quite a way since I went through my break-up. It's only been about 3-4 months. But I'm still struggling as many other issues have surfaced which I was avoiding most of my life. My family and friends are telling me how well I'm handling the situations but honestly.. most of the time I feel awfull. Still, I force myself to go out sometimes, meet with friends, goto the gym and exercise often, read books which helps me learn about God and try to have some peace in my heart.
It really doesn't matter how old someone is. Pain doesn't care about age, or race, etc.. And it's not easy to "get over" something that really wounded your heart. Even when you know what the problem is, it's never easy to just let it go. I know it's really hard not to have negative thoughts in your head swimming around. I read in the book "Finding Peace" (I think that's the title), by Dr. Charles Standley, the book said "we have the power to control what we think." And that's so true. I know it's really hard and sometimes it feels like we don't have any control over things like that but WE DO!
I'm sorry that you were abused and really happy to hear you're not abused anymore. You're out of that awful stage of being abused. Which means you have the power to get over your depression and pain in your life. I'm not sure what other feelings you're going through, but try to believe in yourself. Even though you're having a rough time right NOW, keep telling yourself and believe that you'll get through this. I believe in you Barbara.
