HI Danielle, Thanks for the link. It is intersting. If I am suffering from MMD and Generalized Anxiety Disorder - which program do you think is best to do - the one for depression or the one for panic. Thanks for your help. Torstan

Welcome Torstan & Mmasseychase and thanks for sharing your stories. Unfortunately, relapse happens. Please know that you are not alone and that many have struggled with this same issue. Begin working through our CBT program located in your session diary. Take it one step at a time and don't forget about the homework. If you have any questions, just ask. We are always here to help! Torstan, If you would like additional help with your anxiety, we have a sister site that has been helpful to many: www.paniccenter.net We hope to hear from you again soon. Danielle _____________________ The DC Support Team

Hi Torstan, I thought I would reply seeing as no-one else has yet even though this is my first post myself! I am 22 years old and am currently struggling through my 2nd depressive episode, my first one was accompanied by a nervous breakdown when I was 16. I come from a family with a history of PTSD, abuse, depression and anxiety. This 2nd episode has not been quite so severe for me but is taking a lot longer to work through and is accompanied by lots more physical symptoms, like IBS and gastric upsets. I am also in therapy and on meds - which I have put a lot of faith in as both worked really well for me before. I know the feeling of absolute hopelessness very well - when it seems like nothing works, you can't do anything right, you're never going to be able to fix things and that everything is just hopeless. You would end your life if you weren't so scared about the pain and what it would do to your loved ones. I can't believe I'm saying this to someone else because I feel like this all the time - but please don't give up. Something that I find really helps me is talking with other people that feel or have felt the same way I do. I am on a lot of depression/anxiety/med forums where lots of people share their stories, what works for them and how sh*tty they feel. I also talk to my parents a lot because they have both come through depression a lot worse than mine and it makes me feel better when they explain how they were feeling - because it's often exactly the same as I feel. Then I at least know that it's part of this terrible illness and that I'm not just being melodramatic, making things worse for myself or something like that. I also try and talk to my partner as much as I can - I only see my therapist once a fortnight so I use my friends and family as other sources of support. Even if its just explaining how I feel, trying to get them to understand these things about me, it feels like something else I don't have to hang on to. If they can understand how I feel then I don't feel so ridiculous and screwed up. I'm not sure if this helps or not, hopefully it will! All else I can say is that life is great, it's such a fantastic gift and I can't wait to get back to 'the old me' so that I can enjoy everything like I used to. It is a re

I am 50 years old and have suffered from anxiety / depression most of my life. First when I was a teenager and then on and off over the past 28 years. I have been in an exteme anxious state for the past 2 years and am on long term disability from a very high level job. I cannot seem to shake this no matter what. I have genetic defect som I ma unable to take most medications. This is destroyin me and my family. I see 2 physchiartrists a week and nothing helps. This is tearing me and my family apart. I have always overcome my depression / anxiety but this time nothing works. I think that I have given up! What should I do??