Hi ~
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I agree going through all this is very hard...It is going to take a long time like they mention in session 8..They also mention taking on one core belief at a time...So maybe this would be a place to start, with just one..One small step at a time.
The main reason I am going through this process is because I am sick and tired of feeling bad and being depressed...I really want to learn how to quit beating up on myself...One thing that I have noticed is that my past has had a profound effect on the way I presently see myself...
When I tried start to relax and let myself enjoy reading I just couldn't do it. Than I started thinking why can't I let myself enjoy reading? What happened in my past to make this such a painful thing for me? It was very painful having to remember my childhood but the memories came back and it was kind of a purging for me and I finally understood the why. I had the core beliefs and thoughts that I didn't deserve to relax. That I was undeserving. That if I let myself relax something bad would happen..These assumptions that I had were not true...I realized I did deserve to relax and enjoy reading and that nothing bad would happen if I let myself relax..I do deserve to enjoy my life...
If you just uncover one negative core belief and assumption and challenge it and realize it is not true that it can change your
outlook on life and your feeling about your self into positive feeling about you...Change one negative core belief can change many others kind of like a domino effect...Like today I was able to relax and let myself work my quilting for a hour today...
It is really surprising how our core beliefs effect our later relationships in life..
So the reason to work on this session is to get a better understanding of ones self so that we can live a happier life and have better relationships in our lives....especially with the people care about and most of all so that we can learn to love ourselves again... I know this is a long post but writing things out helps me think things out and gives me a better understanding of my feelings and myself...
Thanks for asking the tough questions. Till next time,
Sid...