bbit,
After this long, we both know that these are just "smoking thoughts." I know that sometimes doesn't make it any easier and these thoughts can really get annoying and drag us down, but it's not the fact that we have these thoughts that's important... it's what we DO with these thoughts. When you get a smoking thought, what do you do? Do you remenisce about what it was like to smoke? Do you sit there and think about how great it would be to have a cigarette right now? Do you think of the "good" times when you used to smoke? Or do you think about how they made you smell, or that cough you had that you just couldn't get rid of, or the money you set on fire that went up in smoke? Do you think about the freedom that you now have from cigarettes and are so glad that you were one of the fortunate ones to make it through the ordeal of quitting to freedom? Are you glad that you now have more money to spend on you and your family because you're not wasting that money anymore? It sounds like what you need to do is change those thoughts... when they come, think about how awful smoking really is and then let it go. Don't dwell on smoking. Smoking wasn't that great and I'm sure if you went back to it, you would see that.
It also sounds to me like you're due a reward. I know when we get further along in the quit, we forget about rewards, but it sounds like you need one. So go out and reward yourself for not smoking... after more than 2 1/2 years, you deserve it! Congratulations on an awesome quit! I'm sure you really don't want to give that up!
Crave the Quit!
Pam
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 10/28/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 335
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 8,382
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1383.55
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 24 [B]Hrs:[/B] 8 [B]Mins:[/B] 5 [B]Seconds:[/B] 20