I am so sorry to read you are having trouble. The version you are using is quite an old version and we are aware of it's downfalls. I report all members comments to management. I hope there is an upgrade in our future!
Even though the technology is not ideal - the information within the site is still very useful - if you can stick with it I think you will find it helpful.
I've just started this program and already it's frustrating. Why are there no printable blank activity sheets and why is the site so confusing to navigate?
I am sorry you are upset. You are exactly where you want to be. The version of the depression centre you are on does not have the title of toolbox. You can access all of your informaiton on your session diary. Contact us through the feedback section if you have any other technically related questions.
Within the Ceridian program you are unable to review previous session. The program is an older version that does not allow for this. I encourage you to take notes on the areas you want to remember. Mood 1 and Mood 2 gives you the option to record one or two moods. For example, you might feel anxious, sad, angry, frustrated, happy, etc. It is normal to feel more the one mood during certain experiences.
The activity tracker is supposed to be a tool you use to monitor how certain activities effect your mood. It is normal to not be able to see a difference right away. Look for small changes in the beginning. Keep reading and working on the program and little by little you should start to see results.
When I was doing the activity tracker, I learned rather quickly that my mood would dip if I had a difficult customer at work. I did not have much tolerance to presser. I am pretty quick to beat myself up and blame myself, even if the issue is someone else's problem. For me the activity tracker, taught me that what I was thinking usually determined how I would feel shortly afterwards.
I don't understand what I'm supposed to do with the Activity Tracker that I spent all last week compiling! Have I missed a step somewhere? It did show that how I feel at any one time has no relation to anything I'm doing, but now what?
When I first read your message, a couple of days ago, I had wished I had the skills to write something that would bring you comfort. My depression symptoms are different than your own. I mostly just feel sick, I can only describe it as feeling like I am due to come down with the flu or a bad cold. Perhaps your feelings of being trapped is your body's way of telling you to take steps to work on things that will pull you out of depression.
Sending best wishes for your recovery.