Thank you so much for your lovely reply! You are so right! The more I stress about this the less I sleep! So I should just enjoy my me time and enjoy the sunrise! Thank you so much for the change in perspective! I did need it!
I did get a few more zzzs eventually. As for hypnotherapy and all that, please keep me posted. Me I have bought a book on how to sleep better. As you said, it can't hurt!
I totally understand what you mean about feeling guilty and miserable. Negative thinking is part of depression. I think applying negative thinking to ourselves and how we perceive ourselves is just a little step away. I know I feel guilty and miserable alot. I keep feeling like I don't deserve the good stuff since I don't manage to cope well enough with the rest. Sily isn't it. When I start thinking that way I try to ask myself, If my friend was in my shoes, would I tell her all the harsh things I tell myself? What would I say to my best friend?
I am sorry you had to go through that. Some people are insensitive and don't even know. I agree with the other though that going out alone is not a bad thing and that you should be proud of all you are doing for yourself!
Up to now it is the 25th of october that keeps getting erased. Sometimes the 24 th too. I keep just refilling it when it gets erased. The dates that don't get erased have change entry on them but the ones who get erased have new entry on them. Thanks!
Today I felt really sad and tired and anxious. So many things in my life are out of whack. I am exhausted and I can't seem to get anything done. Not getting anything sorted makes me anxious. I can't seem to get anything done or fixed. Anytime I have anything planned or anything to do I feel overwhelmed. I have things to do tomorrow and I feel completely overwhelmed about it.
My finances, my schooling, my marriage, mu house all a mess! Tomorrow I have too many things to do and I am overwhelemed and I don't know how to get through tomorrow!
I feel so tired and horrible. I feel guilty for not doing better. I feel like I don't deserve to do fun things for myself. I feel like I haven't deserved them I didn'T even manage to bathe today or yesterday. I feel so horrible. And I try to challenge my thoughts. And I try to stay positive. And I tell myself this will pass and I will feel better. But I feel so horrible.
Atm I am tired and anxious and overwhelmed. So many things need fixing and I have no help to fix them, I have no energey either. I don't know where to begin. I am tired and dirty and scared and overwhelmed.
I feel like I am doing everything wrong and as if my life is bad it is my fault. I feel like I don't deserve better atm. I feel like I should be managing more. I don't do enough. I am lazy and bad.
And I know this is all the tiredness and depression talking. But I am having trouble overcoming. I am overhwlemed by all that needs fixing and by how little I manage to get done.
