you say "of course!" I have seen prominent doctors and been in treatment for 23 years!! I have taken medications, kept journals, attended groups. But EVERY day is painful, EVERY day I cry, EVERY day for over 20 years has felt like it should be my last. I have no one in my life. Being alone for this long has been horrible. The one thing I haven't tried is ECT. Have avoided it, but it is next on my list. Sorry, I know it sounds so negative and not the best way to ask for help. I just don't know how to talk about it honestly with a positive spin...