I got married and started a family in a relatively good time. Things started going bad when I was working for an employer who was only interested in putting money in his pocket. That was a long time ago tho, and things have been "rocky" since.
The "after effects" of that bug have always been on my mind but pushed to the back- Things had been going "ok" for a number of years but not great. Last year depression hit me like never before, my older teen son doing school work that I struggled with was the trigger. It was then that I realized for the very first time just what depression is to me personally. I have experienced it before but never really identified it as such. Last year at this time I went to see a doc and I started talking to her, and mentioned the bug and the symptons I had. I cant remember exactly how it came to that, but it was she who put a name to that bug for the very first time, something I had suspected was more than the "flu". On one hand I was shocked, the other I was releived, finally to have a name that "fit the feelings" I had. With one mri done, another to go, the first one shows up what I would call as "damaged" areas. Although I will never have definate proof as medical records have long been destroyed, I know what I felt, I know how I felt after, I know the struggles I endured. It did not help that my father and mother in one sense of the word "abandoned" me. I felt rejected, isolated, alone with no where to turn to help.
As far as your going for a job, do so when you feel you can put in a days work without feeling stressed. I am "self" employed and struggling as it is. I am looking for a part time job to help pay bills.
Yesterday I made contact with one of the "boys" from my private school. I cant say much here because of privacy issues, but in some ways he has had it worse recently,than I have. There was one incident in school I can laugh about, and Im sure he could too- he "bugged" me just one too many times, and before the teacher came in, I let loose on him pounding him, chasing him and hitting him good. We were crashing over desks and making quite a rucas. I'm surprised no other teacher came into the class to see what was going on. Remember this is a boys private school. If we had been caught, we would have been hauled down to the office and strapped good! Meanwhile, the other boys totally surprised by my actions, as I was always the quiet kid in class no outbursts, were cheering me on!
Anyways, all I can say is to do what you can when you can.
. I am with 10 other women in the department, so it is a very touchy-feely place. My husband is in a construction firm with 6 Guys ... very male. 
